This song was the key to placing 2nd in Canada's Artists for Social Change Competition. I recorded it rawly in my bedroom on a keyboard from the 90's (despite not really knowing how to play the keys). I really wanted to rerecord it after the finale and make it something special, so I decided to reach out to my producer Alex and make it a ballad with string accompaniment. Keep your eyes peeled as there definitely is more than the audio track coming your way this month!
Produced/Mixed/Mastered by Alexander Purcell @ThePurcellProject
lyrics
You have a certain way of showing
That you care when you don’t
Doesn’t matter how long I scream
You only notice when I choke
Gasping for air, I am fully aware of where this is going, where I’ve been
It is no joke, I feel smaller than most, and I know, you’re in control
But I’m not backing down, its my turn to be loud
You have no choice but to hear my voice right now
You were going nowhere, its our turn to share
You’ve done your best to fix this mess, but now its in our hands
And we’ve got big plans
Still there’s this doubt in my mind
There’s never been a shift in tides
You always tell me when I’m in the wrong
And you’re always leaning right where you belong
Praying for change, as I lay wide awake, not knowing, only hoping
This is the way, we need some kind of change, yeah we do, and it starts with you
But I’m not backing down, its my turn to be loud
You have no choice but to hear my voice right now
You were going nowhere, its our turn to share
You’ve done your best to fix this mess, but now its in our hands
And we’ve got big plans
But I’m not backing down, its my turn to be loud
You have no choice but to hear my voice right now
You were going nowhere, its our turn to share
You’ve done your best to fix this mess, but now its in my hands
And we’ve I've got big plans
credits
released May 6, 2021
Alexander Purcell - Mixing, Mastering
Holly Clausius- Composer, lyricist
Holly Clausius is a queer Toronto artist blazing a trail of her own. Her soulful songwriting and charming honesty blend
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